no you need

to shut up

just do it

shut up

because i am done

with your

bull

i am done

what is wrong

with them?

who are them

my parents

i honestly cannot anymore

it is so stupid

i mean

honestly

 

ok so i ask

to go to 

this one thing

with my friends

and what do they say

no.

of course

they say no

they always do

 

next time my mom says

shut up

you only say that

because dad is breathing

down your shoulder

he thinks i'm stupid

for wanting to be 

with friends

he doesn't trust people

no one

my parents don't trust

my friends

 

they have never met them

they don't try 

to meet them

my mom thinks

that my friends

abadon me

yeah ok no

 

the park

my mom made us late

i know she did

i had everything ready

and perfect

and she made us late

she knows she did

and when i was upset

she thought i was sad

because no one showed up

no no no

i'm mad at you

it's your fault

don't try and make me

look like some

fragile little girl

with no friends

just shut up

 

and my dad

who called me 

stupid

for wanting to hang out

with people

you know why i dont

trust people?

because of them

honestly

it's both of our faults

because they make me think

that all of my friends

aren't who they seem

that i can't trust

anyone

that no one is honest

and that everyone

is going to

decieve me

and the fact

that i believe

them is so great

it's awesome

this is why i can't talk to people

this is why i have very little friends

this is why i cut myself

because i can't trust people

because they make me think

that everyone lies

i'm not saying it's their fault

it's my fault too

they know i need to be around people

they know this

i don't like most of the people i have to be

around on a daily basis

meaning people at my church

and they know this

and they don't like those people either

but i love my school friends

because i feel like i can honestly trust them

but my parents are crazy

they are paranoid

they think they're protecting me

you are smotheirng me

you are killing me

you are destroying me

and when i leave

don't think

that i'm coming back