Out of the darkness
"You have beautiful eyes" is what she hears
"and a wonderful smile" as her lips pull into a crescent shape across her face
as she hopes to herself that they believe the lie she has conjured in the form of a grin
but buried deep inside, if you are persistent enough to find, are
scars
too deep to fade away
cut deep into her flesh by words: sharp blades
words that stung her thighs
her arms
words that spilled from her eyes into a jumble that she ravaged through to find
this
she created a mask using letters from the syntax of hate and
her philosophies
build from the ceiling down
from the shards
of memories comes conspiracies
backwards
evol
if you say a word too many times the meaning of it slips silently from your mind
like he slipped out of the window as the moon rose with
someone else
She has created a mask of laughter
and she feeds off it like a parasite
it suffocates a section of the fire that burns in the pit of her stomach
she hides her pain behind her humor like the moon hides behind clouds
few know that it is there and even fewer care enough to look
but what is beyond is not what it seems
it is so much more
it is
depression