How is trying to find love simply in one moment not worth it

when realizing that no one is there to love you ?

How does it feel when you simply look around

and realize that your feelings only matter to you ?

It feels as if your whole life was blinded with an attendance of caring

when really no one would try to catch you if you tumbled and fell.

Every second your heart beats, its pain that pounds against your chest

runs confusion of living within your mind.

No matter if there's a smile on the outside,

depression runs with the blood in

your veins on thee inside.

Are questions of thoughts your only option ?