One day, Today

Tue, 05/12/2015 - 23:38 -- Kayden
There are things I needed to say, 
but you didn't hear. 
You told me it gets better
and things would change,
you preached to me "One Day"
 One day....
 
One day, the things I need to say 
will leave my lips.
 
One day I will tear down the gilded walls
I have built
To protect myself from needless guilt,
and I will fly from that cage. 
 
I'll be brave.
 
One day I will be able to walk away.
 
One day you will know,
you never knew me. 
You knew your reflection in my eyes.
 
One day I won't cry as you say
sorry,
for the millionth time.
 
I escaped after stitches and scars
Convinced you that separation
Would show me how I needed you.
 
Oh you were wrong.
 
Today I realize that
I dreampt of running away 
On my best days,
when you were distracted.
I only stayed because,
where the hell
would I find a home
if not with you?
 
Mommy I love you but
I needed a mother,
not a friend.
 
Today I found her, 
but you will never meet.
 
Today I take a stand.
 
Today I lay down laws
like lines in sand.
 
Today I have a home.
 
Today I am safe,
because what I have now,
I chose.
 
Today I can breathe, and live, and speak.
But not with you.
 
Today scars begin to fade
From my mind, and my heart.
Scars you'll never know you made,
Because I moved the blade,
That ripped away pain
After pain.
 
Today I learn to say no
 
Today I sleep through the night, 
 
Today I break your heart
Because I choose
To put my sanity first.
 
Today,
you say that you feel alone. 
I tell you things will change,
One day. 
 
 
 
 
 
 
This poem is about: 
Me
My family

Comments

Kaitlyn.Elizabeth.Susa.

In love 

Kayden

Thank you!

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