One day, Today
There are things I needed to say,
but you didn't hear.
You told me it gets better
and things would change,
you preached to me "One Day"
One day....
One day, the things I need to say
will leave my lips.
One day I will tear down the gilded walls
I have built
To protect myself from needless guilt,
and I will fly from that cage.
I'll be brave.
One day I will be able to walk away.
One day you will know,
you never knew me.
You knew your reflection in my eyes.
One day I won't cry as you say
sorry,
for the millionth time.
I escaped after stitches and scars
Convinced you that separation
Would show me how I needed you.
Oh you were wrong.
Today I realize that
I dreampt of running away
On my best days,
when you were distracted.
I only stayed because,
where the hell
would I find a home
if not with you?
Mommy I love you but
I needed a mother,
not a friend.
Today I found her,
but you will never meet.
Today I take a stand.
Today I lay down laws
like lines in sand.
Today I have a home.
Today I am safe,
because what I have now,
I chose.
Today I can breathe, and live, and speak.
But not with you.
Today scars begin to fade
From my mind, and my heart.
Scars you'll never know you made,
Because I moved the blade,
That ripped away pain
After pain.
Today I learn to say no
Today I sleep through the night,
Today I break your heart
Because I choose
To put my sanity first.
Today,
you say that you feel alone.
I tell you things will change,
One day.
This poem is about:
Me
My family