Your words were the only thing 

Your voice was the only one thing 

That meant anything to me.

And now I sit belated 

How am I so jaded? 

Why do I debate it?

You were nothing short of disaster 

Yet your love is what I'm after,

I'm still the only one who makes your pain into laughter. 

I guess I'm still ignorant I have to be forgetful,

I still feel like the little girl grabbing pills by the fist full,

And nothing the world has to say

Will take this pain away,

But you make me live another day.

I don't know,

What stopped me that night,

The one I wrote goodbye,

I didn't even cry. 

But you stopped me, 

You held me in your arms 

Even though it was all wrong 

You opened my eyes, you forced me to breathe. 

Too bad I didn't see,

You weren't there for me. 

You only wanted the benefits to keep.

Now I lay here all alone 

You won't pick up the phone

I'll hide my pain with fears 

I'll smile through the years,

But when you cross my mind,

Your memory stops time,

Just to say you're mine.

You put my heart in line.

But it blossoms than its done

The thought is overrun 

By your thinking to belong.

I don't mean more than just a night,

Even though for you my heart and mind constantly fight 

It disappears to you when you turn out the light. 

I can't tell if I love you 

Or If you should die in your sleep

Maybe kiss you too,

But what you did to me,

I use to feel awe struck,

Now Its all just messed up,

And all you hear is the sound of your own wants,

I was so young 

There was nothing I could do 

But fall in love with you,

And now there is nothing I can say

To try and throw this all away..

I can't throw any of it away. 

I'm sorry now,

That I met you that one day

That I'm wasting my life away

For a man that will never make me safe.