Okay to not be Okay

I am afraid

Of you?

of course not.

Of me

 

I am afraid

That I will possess you

and not just caress you.

Who am I to think

 

That you are mine

And noone elses,

and not just your own piece of art.

I felt it

 

I am afraid

Because I should not dictate

yet I cannot help it.

You are you and I am me

 

But I am so consumed

With all of my endless worries

you became my escape.

That doesn't mean I didn't become your trap...

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I am afraid

Because those green eyes

made me fall in the first place...

Yet now I am what makes them weep

 

I love when they get bright

I love you

so you love me, Right???

"Yeah..." Well then I must never give up!

 

I am afraid

Please dont't hang out with them

or I'll be upset.

Don't you love me

 

I am afraid

Because of course you do

and I know it...

Yet I can never except it

 

So I push you further

And further

into an abyss you should never have felt.

Or maybe I was your darkest lesson

 

I am afraid

Maybe watching the pain I cause

is my darkest lesson.

I didn't just think it

 

I felt it

With Frank in the back

that's life.

But I can't except it!

 

I am afraid

Because finally

you are getting strong.

You are tired of it

 

I should be running my fingers

Through that brunette hair

feeling your softest neck.

I should just love you

 

I am afraid

You don't believe me

I know what true love is.

I am just weak

 

But you are strong

So do us a favor

and break free.

So we can both learn

 

 

Don't be afraid... because it's;

 

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world

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