I can feel myself getting more and more numb
Each and everyday.
I always think I find love
But it's never both ways
What is that I'm after, exactly?
Is it love, happiness, purpose, freedom?
They say if you wait patiently
Happiness creeps up on you
When you least expect it
But i'm afraid if I wait too long
That one day, ill be completely numb
Yet I continue trying, to find it.
I think I hope that it could save me.
But, im just chasing a never ending maze
That has no reward, or purpose.
As much as I try to love,
Or strive to.find my purpose to live
I don't think I can, any longer.
Why do I keep fighting a losing battle?
I cant stand the pain inside
I can't bear it any longer
I minus well be dead,
Since I'm living my life as a numb, zombie.
What is life?
I continue to search
Knowing at the end of this tunnel
Is a black hole, waiting for me to fall.
I'm getting closer, for each day
I'm getting more and more numb.
No matter how good life gets
Or how much I try to.forget,
The pain remains,
It will never go away.
I keep searching, to find absolutely nothing.