Nothing Holding Me Back

I wish I could somehow project my dreams through my eyes

Just to create an illusion worth living for

I’m struggling with the thought

That the only thing left to do 

To protect myself

Is take a step back

 

You see I’ve been putting my heart in the line of fire ever since the day it won the war with my brain

But even though it won

It still gets shot to pieces

By someone who thinks is holding a toy

 

But it simply doesn’t leave

Even if it wants to

 

You know

Yesterday I had a vision

In this vision

I’m leaning against a window

Only to then realise there wasn’t a window to begin with

I started to fall

I fell past all the opportunities I had to tell you how I feel

I fell so far down I hit the pavement

The pavement cracked and I landed on the first time we met

And once again I was speechless

I saw you crying

So I touched your arm and asked if you were okay

You were surprised cause you didn’t know me yet

Twas like you at that point already knew what was gonna happen

You had a smile that said 

“You sure u wanna do this?”

And I think I’ve never said the word yes more clear without talking at all

 

I’ve been trying to write down how much you mean to me

But I think I must be water 

Cause everytime I try to touch the paper it gets wet from tears with questionmarks spilled all over

 

I keep hitting a bag

But deep down

I want it to be hitting me

To take my stupid look

And smash it right off of my face

Because I know

You’ll never feel the same way

But the definition of love is being hit with a bat

Over and over

But still you’re hoping they’re not doing it on purpose

 

Damn I’d even catch you BEFORE you fall

 

You see

I don’t like to fight

But someone told me

Once you love someone

You never stop

Because you can’t scare a flame  destined to become a fire

 

So If that’s what it takes to be with you

I’ll fight for the rest of my life

This poem is about: 
Me

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