Nothing Holding Me Back
I wish I could somehow project my dreams through my eyes
Just to create an illusion worth living for
I’m struggling with the thought
That the only thing left to do
To protect myself
Is take a step back
You see I’ve been putting my heart in the line of fire ever since the day it won the war with my brain
But even though it won
It still gets shot to pieces
By someone who thinks is holding a toy
But it simply doesn’t leave
Even if it wants to
You know
Yesterday I had a vision
In this vision
I’m leaning against a window
Only to then realise there wasn’t a window to begin with
I started to fall
I fell past all the opportunities I had to tell you how I feel
I fell so far down I hit the pavement
The pavement cracked and I landed on the first time we met
And once again I was speechless
I saw you crying
So I touched your arm and asked if you were okay
You were surprised cause you didn’t know me yet
Twas like you at that point already knew what was gonna happen
You had a smile that said
“You sure u wanna do this?”
And I think I’ve never said the word yes more clear without talking at all
I’ve been trying to write down how much you mean to me
But I think I must be water
Cause everytime I try to touch the paper it gets wet from tears with questionmarks spilled all over
I keep hitting a bag
But deep down
I want it to be hitting me
To take my stupid look
And smash it right off of my face
Because I know
You’ll never feel the same way
But the definition of love is being hit with a bat
Over and over
But still you’re hoping they’re not doing it on purpose
Damn I’d even catch you BEFORE you fall
You see
I don’t like to fight
But someone told me
Once you love someone
You never stop
Because you can’t scare a flame destined to become a fire
So If that’s what it takes to be with you
I’ll fight for the rest of my life