I am afraid to close my eyes
Hearing the emptiness when I awake
Feeling any heart pounding against my ribs
lungs constricting to leave me breathless.
My head is spinning
as I choke down a shriek
afraid of something I can never remember.
Every two hours I glare at the clock
waiting for sleep to came back
but peace doesn't return
leaving me with nothing but panic.
Anxious mind overpowering the music
the one meant to drawn art the mind
and keep me from drowning in my tears.
I won't awaken anyone
despite what they say
for I will be nothing more then in annoyance
without any answers to this inquiries
all meant to help.
So now here I sit at 2:47 am
writing about what l can not explain
thinking how much ease a blade or nail can bring.
I have prayed with no avail
So I will ask for forgiveness for my sin
And do my best to not allow anxiety to win.