Nightmares...
I woke up crying
The nightmares of
Seeing you die,
Watching you bleed,
Your body broken,
Mandled,
Twisted,
Shattered,
And nothing I could do
To ever bring you back.
Watching them extract you
From a totaled car
Down Ogden Canyon.
The nightmares of
You leaving me
Telling me it was
All a game,
That I was NOTHING.
I’ve been hurt before,
But that was insignigicant
Compared to
How much you could
Hurt me.
Waking up to
A tear-soaked pillow,
Still I sobbed into it,
Wearing your jacket,
And breathing your smell.
I think it’s really love
When you miss someone
So much it makes you sick.
When one word
Could mean anyting to
Someone else, but
Everything between you and your love.
And when you’re gone,
The colors seem just as bright,
The world just as sunny,
The sky as blue and
The night as full of stars.
No… when you’re gone
Those things just don’t
Seem special anymore.
Everything I know has gone flat,
Like champagne without bubbles.
And it’s not the
Nothingness I feel,
But the complete lack of ANYTHING
To fight for.
Fourteen months of
Loving you, so much
It made me cry, so much
I had to force myself to think
About ANYONE else
Because I never thought I could have you.
Fourteen months of hoping
That I can be
Everything that you need.
In two months you’ll be home
And you can be with me.
If I had to,
I’d wait years to wake up
To you again.
And it wouldn’t hurt too much
To have my heart broken by you
If it meant that I
Had once held yours.