As I can't sleep I sneak out
I go for my late night walks
I miss this
I missed the peace that came with the night
I walk to the park
As I get there
Your there ..
I turned the other way
I'll just walk the canal
I hear you call my name
You come running
Asking if I was ok
I just look up at you
Can hardly see your face
I smile and said I was fine couldn't sleep
I start to walk away
You ask if I can stay with you
You couldn't sleep either
Wanted someone to talk to
I turned back and said I rather not I just came for some fresh air
It's time to go home
You asked if you can walk me home
I agreed
You started to talk
I felt bad I had my music playing
I laughed and apologized
You smiled and called me a dorky peach .....
It's been a while since that nick name was used
I just smiled and said you know it you weird papaya
You patted my head and spoke again...
Night conversation I missed them
Walking not a care in the world
This was the only time we ever found peace
You told me everything that was going on with you
And asked about me
I just looked up and said I'm fine no need to ask questions
I'm in a relationship that's all that's important
You stopped asked if I was happy
I could hear the pain in your voice
Are you that surprised?
I wasn't going to wait another 2 years again
Plus this time I choose him not you
You hung your head
I felt sorry so I said your the one who ended things
Plus you seem ok you'll get over it
As I start to walk away
You run and hug me from behind
I felt the tears hit my skin ...
I pat your head and smile
If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have met Eddie
I would still be wondering what true love would have felt like
Please don't cry it was for the best .....
I can't take this anymore
I try to break free but you will update let me
I laughed and said awkward moment of silence
You laughed told me I could never be serious
Yup I know let go were not far from my house
You walked behind me for the rest of the walk
Kept telling me how hard it has gotten
How you missed talking to me to make the light shine
So that's why you went for a walk
You wanted to see my arrow
I had forgotten about it
I told him about the star Eddie had named for me
I can tell you where upset
We get to my place
You asked if we could lay on the floor like old times
I smiled and said I'll sit not kay down
As you kay down you started to cry
Told me a lady came up to you and said you will never be happy
You let go of the one who's meant for you
The one who would always be there had finally let go
You asked if I knew about the man who draws soul mates
I said yes
You then asked have you given any thought about asking him
I said yes
You got up with hope in your eyes
I smiled and said I don't need a man to tell me who in supposed to be with
I'm with the one I want to be with already
You smiled and started to sit closer ....
I laughed and said I mean my relationship not you
The pain look came back as if I stabbed you
I got up and said it's time to call it a night
Thanks for walking me home I'll get you a water
As I jumped my fence and went into my window
You just kept looking up
I came back out to give you your water and to say good night
You grabbed my hand
And pulled me in for a hug
But knowing your clumsy butt
You tripped and we both fell
I laughed and told you to get off
It was like when we tired to ice skate
You had fallen on me to cushion your fall
You laughed and told me to shut up
You got up to look at me but I kneed you
I knew what you were trying to do
Not today weird papaya
I got up and said goodnight
Thanks for the night conversation
Even though you did most of the talking
You got up in pain and said you deserved it
I said no you deserve to be happy just not with me
As you started to walk away you said it was with me
And yelled out how you asked for the soulmate drawing
I stopped my heart strated to hurt
I said nah my identical doppelganger maybe
But I was done I'm happy not turning back now
You ran to me and hugged me again
Said ok ok be just careful with him
I smiled and said I will go home and pushed you off
You grabbed my face
And before I could knee you again
You told me to just look I'm not going to kiss you
I looked up and your eyes got wide open
You let go and started to walk away
Ok weird papaya ? Wtf?
You stopped and said you really love this guy you're with...
Your eyes no longer get bigger when you see me ...
I was holding onto that small chance
But I saw nothing only when you spoke of him
Your eyes went big but not for me ...
Not anymore
I hope he treats you right .
Is this what it feels like to lose?
Did I finally lose you?
Did you actually move on?
Before I could answer you started to run away
Yelling how much you were going to miss me
And then you turned the corner.....
I knew I would bump into you again sometime later..
But we will only act like strangers
Night conversations
You never know where they might lead you
Mine just showed me I'm 100% committed to the person I'm with