Never Had Love

   Cold Heart, Closing Out, They Come With Love You Shut Them Out, You Feel The Shit You Think About. Overthinking. 

    Can You Hear Me Now?

 Crack A Smile, Fake A Hug Don’t Know How To Feel Cause You Never Had Love.

    Mother Walked Out And Turned To Drugs

  Police Running in Being Loud as Fuck, Stomach Kinda Empty, No Food To Grub

  As A Baby Being Taking, Never Having Love 

   Now Foster Homes Deal With &’d Different Moms You Live With, But Only Mom You Want Aint Feel Shit. Your Hurting

   So Life Was Hard To Deal With, Made It Easy Not To Feel Shit. Your Distant

   Running Away No One Look For You, Made You Strong Enough To Make It Through

   Wanting Your Mom’ Wanting A Family’ Wanting To Be Love ‘Wanting To Be Happy.’

    Feeling Lonely, Feeling Neglected

 Don’t Understand Love Cause Your Used To Rejections, Women Taking Advantaged Of You Not Really Caring For You, Your Just A Lost Child 

    School Starts But Then You Hold The Thought Of Not Having The Proper Clothes, The Kids Would Tease 

    Them Kids Some Hoes. 

Made You Want Better So You Had To Get Cheddar, Take It Up Another Level But Your Personalities Clever, So Some Kids Liked You Better. 

    All The Wrong People, Looking Up To The Wrong Guys, Made You See Some Shit, Should’ve Been Hidden From Your Eyes 

   Cooking Dope, Serving Crack Only Way To Shake Some Back, Quickest Way To Get Some Racks,

   Turned To The Streets Cause It Loved You Back Love. Well Some How You Thought Of That, You Didn’t Know It Wasn’t Love, I Mean How Could You Know, When You Never Had Love. 

    Growing Older Being About Your Paper, Always Taught In School Keep Your Eyes On Your Own Paper, Stumbled In Your Steps So Jails The Next Step 

    Advice Can Be Misleading But Examples Always Clear. The Vision Of The Eye is More Willing Than Ear. 

   Snake, Flakes, Cant Forget The Fakes Plus The Ones That Hate, But You Develop Faith A Faith That Carries Weights, Numb 

     Can’t Be Vulnerable Or You’re Weak. Quick To Grab The Heat. Thoughts Getting Deep Just Wanting To Retreat, Pray To God To Get Some Peace. 

     Emotional Til Your Emotionless 

All Your Feelings Are Just A Mess Trying Hard To Be Your Best, 

    The Need To Have It All Cause You Always Had Less. Shield Around Your Heart So That You Can Feel Less. Lonely 

    Blow Till Your Eyes Close, Gone Off The Drugs, Replacing The Heart Who Never Had Love 

 

 

~Gotti