Never Fight
Too late
To stop me
To bring me to my senses.
Too soon
For me to react
For me to notice your gaze.
Too strong
To be forgotten
To be left behind.
Too weak
To be worth anything to the others
To show myself, to prove anything.
I can't hold myself up anymore
Can't see, can't breathe
Can't ask for another open door.
Just want to give up, give in to the rage
The rage that I can't find
That I can't find the end of.
Just want to let them see me fight
Fight, fight fight
They're chanting.
Just want to give up and fight
Fight, fight, fight
Infectious roars.
I don't want to resort to violence
But it seems the only way
That I'll save my meagre chances of survival.
There they go again,
Fight, fight, fight,
Just the voices in my head.
I'm blind and lost
Behind my rage-red cataracts
My senses numb in fury.
There's some fire
That I thought I'd put behind me
Only hidden far away, deep below the surface.
I can't help but give up and fight
Fight, fight, fight
They only get louder.
And I cry when my senses come back
When I finally realize
What I couldn't help but do.
And they stare
They shake their heads
Oblivious to my crisis.
-Smarten up.
How I dread that phrase.
It means she doesn't care.
It means she thinks I'm just a fake.
Never fight, I think.
Don't give in to that.
And never break your own heart
Just to see how it works.
You know enough.
You know it hurts.