I can't believe you're really gone.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          We lost you a year ago and it doesn't even seem like that long.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             It feels like only yesterday we were learning how to walk.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             It drives me crazy to know I was the last one to hear you talk.                                                                                                                                              I hope wherever you are, you're in a better place.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        I hope now you realize your life wasn't worth that stupid race.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  I wish you could hear your brother talk about you, Kevin.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             It's not easy for any of us to accept you're now in heaven.                                                                                                                                         Loosing you was the worst thing that has ever happened to me.                                                                                                                                    Your mother's phone call is what changed my life so drastically.                                                                                                                                  Maybe your final thoughts were how badly you didn't want to go.                                                                                                                                      I pray everyday for your family, especially your mom; I just want you to know.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  I'll never forget that day I saw so many grown men cry.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         This is just a "see you later," not a "goodbye."                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    But so you know, your absence has taught me a valuable lesson;                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       Never drive faster than your guardian angel can fly .