I've never minded being alone.
It's been a fact since my birth
My father wasn't there, though I try to keep that from lessening my worth
Mom works hard, my new Dad does too
When my brother ws born, it seems so were you.
All of you crowded my thoughts and my mind
I became a slave to your whims
But of course I didn't mind, I had friends from within.
You broke me down, each nitpicking me bit by bit
Made me feel worthless and small, breaking me with your comments and wit
However, you made me strong, made my impenetrable thick skin
For how can another hurt me when all my pain came from within?
Depression taught me that life is fleeting, so do what you can
Self- consciousness, to let no one judge me for being who I am
Insecurity, that beauty is in the eye of the beholder
And Anxiety that the world is full of wonder
Blunt honesty was what I need and got and I'm making my family proud
I don't regret my mind's coinhabitants, for they helped to strip away my childish shroud
Some would call them monsters
I consider them friends
They've been my mentors from the start and will be until the end
I've learned to make peace with my flaws
Some now bring happiness and others still come with pause
But I know that time heals all and makes pain fade away
Not cloudy skies
Or negativity of any kind or in any way
Can ruin a single moment in any of my new days.
I wanted to dedicate this to my Grandmothers as well, if that'd be alright. This isn't a part of the poem, but my Grandmothers that have passed were inspirational as well, and continue to inspire me everyday.
To whoever reads this, I hope you enjoy and understand. Have a lovely day.