It's crippling

I can barely leave my room

without someone beside me

I've felt so alone

and then theres that ray of hope

I'm not really alone

except when I am

and that fear comes back 

and then I'm surrounded by family

and then I'm alone again

but then there's that ray of hope 

that one thing that makes me excited to get to class

and then it's gone

and I'm alone

and I can't eat

because I can't be alone

and it's crippling