I see darkness.
When i see the darkness it reminds me of the bad.
It reminds me of the sad.
It reminds me that My mom hurt my dad
. When i remeber this I think of how much my dad has done for me
. He has always been there.
When i was younger her was my hero.
Now I see i picked the lesser of two evils.
When i think about the lesser.
I think about how i am no go.
I wont amount to much and every thing i do or say will be out done and out shown by someone better then me.
This scarres me.
It scarres me because as i lay awake at night, i wonder why i go on.
Once this though gets going the only way to block it out is thinking of nothing.
But the nothing reminds me to much of the darkness.