My Life in a Poem - ' when I learned to love myself '

Throughout this life I have been exposed to dark things, 

I was happy then sad, then caught in between.

Glass half full is better than a glass half empty, 

Now if I have a glass of anything at all, I probably have plenty

When I was younger I was so unaware, 

Of assault and abandonments, poverty and struggles

I was very fortunate and I had parents who I cuddled

That does not mean that it cannot change, I was hit hard with my life struggles hard one day

It altered my mind and I now believe

Life is not not a walk in the park, a dream, or a breeze

People can change and loved ones leave 

I once saw blue skies and daisies all the time, 

Until ignorance and bliss expired and the world posioned my mind

You cant take back the things you do and say

It's because of other people that I changed my way

Would I rather have stayed naive and never known 

What would happen to me if a guy took me home

When you think that you are safe you are probably not 

He might slip something in your drink and never get caught

It wasn't easy to get through but it help shaped me

Into the type of person that gets girls home safely 

Life is a journey with no destination

Nothing is certain and no one gave us directions

When I was shameful I began to question 

My motives, my morals, and my self-perception

It was like one day I was together and the next I was broken 

Because life threw me a fast one and my eyes weren't open

They say these things come in sets of three

And they were right again

After this happen two more boys took me home 

And had sex with me while I slept in their beds

I don't tell people because I don't know what to say 

And when I think about telling people I get in the way

I never cared about others judging my appearance, 

Now it is the reason that I am tense when a boy is near me and I am in tight pants

When someone makes a comment about a persons body 

It can go one of two ways, 

Either the mind is strong enough to ignore it

Or the words will echo through a mind on replay

Me, I was not strong and secure then,

I was young and still pure

No one had touched my body just yet,

2016 was a terrible year.

I knew a boy would break my heart one day,

But this was not the average way

Because the boy that hurt me most in the end 

Was not only my family, but also my best friend 

I was not the word that you said I was 

I am not the size of a whale

I did not deserve the disrespect 

So I set a goal and I swore I would not fail

Years of self-hate and crying and fear 

Of a roll on my body and my reflection in the mirror 

It's all in your head they say, you can't lose anymore weight 

Well I wont be done until the boy I love wants to take me on a date

It took three years but one day I was fine

I learned how to love myself, it just took a long time

When I found myself I stopped and considered 

My life in the future if I continued to wither 

I want to raise a family that is healthy and kind

With healthy bodies and healthy minds

I did not know this until it was over,

But neglecting your mind is neglecting your controller

What would I do if my precious daughter 

Ever confronted me with this disorder 

Mom I can't look at myself, Mom I got on the scale 

Mom, why did my little brother call me a whale

I want to say that she is beautiful in every way 

But what does that word mean when the word whale is on replay 

I will say you are unique and you are loved 

You are one of a kind

You are the daughter I have always dreamed of 

You are enough and you will shine

You are worthy and you are going to be fine

Stop crying and start smiling, I love you Ali

Life is far too short to be so unhappy 

Too short to be unhappy over a number on a scale 

Too short to only drink water and maybe some kale

Life is about adevnture and love 

It is a discovery of who we are, and what we are capable of

If life was a treasure hunt and with a hidden surprise

It's final gift would not be a mean guy or your jean size 

Be free in this life because it is a gift

Life is a journey, and it has a time limit, 

We get to choose our own path and how we live it.

But before you can let go, you need to forgive it. 

Forgive him, forgive her, and the dark things that happened. 

You are a warrior, you are a champion, you can't change the past now because it's happened. 

Look how far you have come my love, and all the work that has been done

You taught you how to love yourself and you did it all from scratch

You've always had a fire in you Al, you just forgot to light the match.

 

 

 

 

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world

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