THE TIME STARTS NOW...
These will be my last
As i sit here and wait for the pills to take my life i think about what i've done with it
Who is listening to me?
Has anyone ever listened?
Who will miss me when im gone?
As the timer goes to 9 MIns i start thinking...
I walk around my room thinking of ways to make the time go faster, i go to my drawer and pull out my blade
As i slice into my arm the memories come flowing back to me like the blood that flows down my arm
I DIDNT PLAY FAIR.
And now im getting what i deserve
im sitting here writing my last letter 2 u
I look at the timer... now that it says 7 mins i realize that i have exuasted all of my options
I remeber the day that I decided to jump onto the blade called love chest first
With the sword named love strapped to my waist i swore to cnvence u that u would never get hurt, but...
With my fingers crossed behind my back , through clenched teeth, and tears i lied and said i loved you everytime.
I realize that the thing ive always wanted was here all along
I always thought that you were trying 2 hurt me so i put a gate around my heart and soul and locked it so tight that even air couldnt get through but you still tried to get through
The timer says that there are 2 Mins left and now i sit here and cry because i realize that these will be my last 2 mins and that ive let you down....you loved me for me no matter what i brought to the table
As i sit here curled up in the bath tub feeling to weak to go on. i can see the light closing iin on me and i kn that i have no more time to borrow on this earth. As i finally give in to death i begin to think...
the only thing that i ever wanted i have lied to . The only thing that i ever wanted was u....OH MY GOD! what did i just do?
As i try to jump out of deaths arms I see you there in his arms to... you look to me and say " i always knew u loved me to..."