“I bet it’s like licking lollipops and rainbows,
skipping through meadows,”
all the plants are dead.
The sky is dark and the air is thick
If you really knew what was going on you’d think I’m sick
and indeed I am, sick as they say
in fact, I’m probably getting worse every single day.
My smiles get bigger, but I’m really feeling numb
If you asked me how I am feeling, you would think I’m dumb
Unable to speak, but able to continuously feel
Never given enough time to fully heal
so I constantly am going through the motions
but thank God I have a Father whose grace is like an ocean
and I don’t want to drown in this world any longer
But it seems like the wind is picking up and the storm is getting even stronger.
I have faith, I do, but sometimes it seems
That my life is like an old cloth, unraveling at the seams
I should not worry, for tomorrow has worries of its own,
But so do I, and sincerely I’ve grown
Grown tired of hoping and wishing for a better day
Continually waiting to be shown the way
The way to happiness and joy, peace, and serenity
I have to be honest to myself and realize I am my own worst enemy
I make the choice of what I feel and what I think
Whether to start fresh everyday or continuously link
My yesterdays to my todays and feel the same emotions
To feel and be alive or just go through the motions.
Today I choose joy from now on and to the end
And always remind myself again and again
That there’s light and promise at the end of the tunnel and storm
From now on I know, I will never be torn
Between the road less travelled and the one they all go
Because I have Someone inside me, Someone I know
Loves me as much as Hassan loved Amir
He’s seen my every fall and witnessed my every tear
And it is with Him, and only Him, I can make it through
It is with Him, and only Him, all things I can do
My mourning will be dancing
and out of my mouth will come praise
For I know He is with me all of my days
So the darkness will turn to light and the plants will prosper and grow
And for me?
you’ll find me, with My God, skipping through the meadows.