My Glass Box Was Always Meant to Be Broken
It's clear and empty inside from what I can see
Lifting my fingers out in front of me
Smooth, cold glass greets my finger tips
Sending shivers up my arms with my heart beating in skips
A cube that doesn't move to its other side
I sit here watching the world go by
On stage, people expressing their art with joy
While I watched in my own little world, in a unforeseeable void
Thinking and wondering when it would be my time to confide
In my dreams and desires that want to fly high
They told me what I should know
It was as if they expected me to never grow
“Sit inside and be a good girl”
“Keep in what one wouldn't want to see whirl”
“You need to be pure in the world of bad”
“Its what's best, so don't be sad"
These ideas were shoved inside
Never letting me get the chance to do something I had never tried
Giving me the things they thought I needed
But not something I would have cried for, even pleaded
I have grown since then
Proof by the fact that this cage is less than willing to bend
I can't always be here
I need to experience the world and be me, without fear
It was time to get out
And the only way I thought of but knew I couldn't dwell on about
Taking a breath, I pull back my fist
Throwing it out with all the strength I hadn't known to exist
I hear an ear piercing crack
Now wasn't the time to hold back
Pushing onto the glass with all my might
I felt it push away, but not without a fight
“I won't let you control me anymore”
I speak softly, but from deep within my core
Bursting forth into the world that seemed new and yet familiar
I grab the lone microphone on the stage knowing there was something I must deliver
Light shimmering from above
Heat finally hugging me close and snug like a little glove
Nerves piling inside my tummy
My fear of letting go of my insecurities it wasn't funny
Time to show the world around me
That I was proud of my self expression through art and music, as a human being
Opening my mouth to express
Even if my voice left little to impress
It carries over the sea of faces
All staring at me in uncertain hazes
Its my time to shine
I have to voice what my heart wants to define
Who I have become
No longer confined being cold and numb
I have finally spoken
And its all because my glass box was always meant to be broken