My First love
Before I was conceived I was betrothed to the one I knew nothing of
I heard stories in my other life of how polygamous his love was
And Of course I thought negative of him; I wanted him all to myself.
So I came to this world which I heard he created,
My heart long to see him but first, I must prove my love for him by first loving others.
My heart is full with questions, mind confused as to so many things
Eyes open to love I cannot comprehend. Verily I say to myself when would I know?
When would I understand why he did what he did?
Of course as I think and meditate I still flourish in sin, heart and mind so dirty
As I wake to guilt every breaking of the dawn and still I mourn
Despite my rebellion and tribulation he still calls me his son
Though the battle seemed fierce it is something I had already won
I wasn’t yet alive yet he received the strokes of the whip on my behalf, through this I fall sick not
I wasn’t yet born yet he was spat on because of me, yes! Yes! That day that very day he carried all my sins, pain, grief, sufferings, condemnation, he was nailed to the cross ay! That day I had a new life even before I had my first.
He loved me before I could learn to love
He cried for me before I could learn to cry
He was condemned and beaten for me before I could withstand a yell.
As I grew I got to understand his polygamous nature
I got to appreciate how he gave people like me without a past hope for a great future
Yes it is his nature
Yes he is my first love.
As I come to this recognition my eyes open with vision
Clear state of intuition for this very mission
A message for the entire nation
I see I see beyond what I used to
I feel beyond what I USED TO
Love so unconditional
Passion so deep
I have come to the point of no return
Of if I do I shall weep
And this is so
For I have falling in love with a GOD who neither slumber nor sleeps