My fears
I once I had
a team building exersize
In which we told the team
our biggest fear
when it came my time I froze
not because I was afraid to tell them my fear
but because I couldn't choose one
Because I didn't have the heart to say
I'm afraid of everything
I'm afraid of the dark
i'm afraid of clowns and fursuits
I'm afraid of puppets and I'm afraid of girls
I'm afraid of adults that want to fix me
And boys that want the same
i'm afraid I might grow a pair and go through with it
and die physically
I'm afraid of change
and I'm afraid that nothing ever will
I'm afraid of crowds and empty spaces
I'm afraid of growing old
and I'm afraid of never getting the chance
i'm afraid that I love her too much
and she doesn't love me back in equal
I'm afraid of my father
and I'm afraid of my mother
I'm afraid of what they've done,
what they will do,
and what they can do
i'm afraid of losing her
i'm afraid of pushing her away
i'm afraid I love her
I'm afraid we'll get found out
I'm afraid she won't be strong enough to stand under the pressure
I'm afraid she won't let me hold it for her
i'm afraid I'd crack too
I'm afraid of men
i'm afraid of people older than myself
and the authority they wield
I'm afraid of myself
I'm afraid of my anger
i'm afraid of my love
I'm afraid of my own intensity
i'm always
afraid
but I didn't say that
i shrugged
and let them move on