I'd rather be asleep.

Because I'd rather be numb.

It's my only escape.

To feel safe.

And loved.

And comfortable.

The numbness of not having to have stress-outs,

Or anxiety,

Or panic-attacks;

is just very appealing.

Drifting around in a place that's not materialistic, 

And not filled with high expectations.

I'd rather be asleep.

Because awake is too much.