My Drug
Music found me.
Christ saved me, made me new.
But I, threw it all away
When I let him destroy me
He didn’t know
I thought I could save him
But I lost myself along the way.
I changed…
I cared less, I stressed less
Which is not always a bad thing
But..
I took it too far.
My opinions changed
Some for the better, some for worse.
He overcame me
I felt beautiful and confident and for the first time in a long time I felt
Happy.
At least I thought.
I was too blind to understand how I had let him kill me.
Without him
I feel lousy;
Ugly, self-conscious, stupid
I dug a hole for myself too deep to climb out of
He was the only thing that made it better.
He was like a drug
The more I got the more I needed
And the worse I felt after
Slowly I was killing myself
I couldn’t see it.
I let him in.
I asked for more
I say he destroyed me
But in the end
There is no one to blame
But me.