For years I've been trying
to reach out to you.
Damn it I love you
but you're making it hard for me
Your words hurt me
They pierce me in my heart like a dagger
You keep saying that you'll always be there for me but I know that's a lie.
Damn It Dad why do you do this?
What am I chopped liver to you?
For years my heart has been shattered thanks to your bitter lies.
Every damn day I have to carry on like nothing is wrong even though everything is not okay.
Daddy can you hear my heart crying?
Do I matter to you?
Why do you push me away?
All I want is a father to love me for who I am not for someone I'm not.
I'm not a shield stop hiding behind me when you lie.
I'm done with your lies and your broken promises.