My biggest fear is, that someone finds out whats going on inside my head.

My thoughts can be crazy, heartbreaking, suicidal and sometimes even homicidal.

It is not that i will kill someone or my self. It is just constant thoughts that i can't 

control. 

I do not control my mind. I do not get to decide what i wanna think. It is exhausting. 

No matter how hard i try to run, it always finds me. There is no escape for me. 

If anyone got a short look in my mind, i would be sendt to the psychiatrics closed 

department. 

That is my biggest and most constant fear.