I’d like to say it’s been a while,
but that’d be a lie.
I saw you yesterday.
We sat and you told me everything I didn’t want to hear.
The boy walking past knows that your skin is cracking and dry;
The girl sitting next to you thinks your shirt is too revealing,
that you’re a total slut.
Your teacher doesn’t understand how someone so dumb could pass her class;
You’re going to fail.
Your friends wish you didn’t force them to talk to you;
It’s not like they actually like you.
Oh my dear Anxiety,
We sat and you talked for hours.
Me? I couldn’t even begin to try and speak.
There is no arguing against you.
Whenever I see you Anxiety,
My heart pounds,
My hands shake,
And my eyes begin to water.
You show me a new way to look at life,
Overthinking detail after detail after detail.
The more we talked,
the more I wished I never met you.
But you came up to me;
I never had a choice.
You sang the wrong note in class?
People will laugh after school for hours.
Looks like you spelt a word wrong on your application;
No job will hire you if they see those eraser marks.
You tripped on a walk to the door of a restaurant,
and the group next to you thinks that you’re on some kind of drug.
You hate making mistakes?
Good, because everyone else hates you already.
I know I can’t do anything to keep you away;
you always find a way into conversation.
So until next time Anxiety.
I hope you never come back.
A Girl with Social Anxiety