Mothers (Sad to See)
I'm tired for taking fault for my own life
for once can you just take the blame
I mean just to feel an ounce of your love, i had to fight
Yet you really feel no shame
How can you sit there demanding respect?
Please, you did nothing to "raise" me
So I don't know what it is you expect
please, the tv taught me more than you, it might as well had birthed me.
If raising a child consisted of yelling and teaching me to lie
well then you take the cake
Teaching me to keep your secrets and that i should put my feelings aside
Well then Congratulations! You win first place.
When I needed your help
you were no where to be found
You always worried about yourself
And when it came to our feelings you didn't want to hear a sound.
I just wanted to be treated like your child
but instead I was your mule
I respected you and never got too wild
And now I feel like the fool
We are not your property
Thats not how you raise people
I am NOT your property
We are all created equal
I didn't learn how to be a woman from you
god help me if i ever did
I had it hard out in the real world, because I had to teach myself what to do
But trust me I know I'll know how to raise my kid
But yet you take credit for me being the woman that I am
Yes of course, because Lord knows "you taught me"
And when they say "your lucky to have mother like yours" I say "I am"
When I know you hardly taught me anything, I can't even think of one memory.
They say children will never love their mothers like they love them
I say that its the other way around, vice versa
moms expect us to forever love them, kiss and hug them
I say they should at least want to be around, instead of desert ya
They don't realize that their actions jeopardize our being
they don't realize their choices hurt us
The choices you choose to make, disgust us when we're seeing
You might as well just had deserted us
It feels like it anyway, fending for ourselves is our specialty
We're told to grow up at an age when we don't even know what that means yet
Affection towards us has never been your cup of tea
Why do I even bother getting upset
Please stop choosing your life over ours
Yes, we know you aren't perfect
But please for once stop being cowards
and learn to sacrifice for our happiness, and then we can for once connect
You always wonder why we are so unhappy
But not once do you think it's you
or do you even care enough to to make us happy
probably not, because you still continue to do what you do
The way you carry yourself
You shouldn't call yourself a woman
Please take a look at yourself
Really analyze what your doing
It's wrong in every sense
your ways are so disgustingly styled
the cost of your choices is at our expense
and sometimes I'd just rather be a motherless child
Don't ever think I don't remember the good you've done for me
Please trust me when I say, I really do
But you could have done a lot more if you ask me
You still can be a better mother is all I can say, from me to you.
It hurts to say because i love you deeply
but i say this because i'm hurt
but the cost of your love is priced so steeply
it makes me wonder why you brought me onto to this earth
You gave and still continue to give others your love
ones who should have never had it in the first place.
Lovely memories i can honestly never think of
because we were never your first place.
(not me at least)