November 20 2017

Goodbye brother 

Though you are the one leaving for deployment, 

I feel like I'm the one being taken away.

Remember when we would make mud pies when we were 5?

And when you beat up a boy for breaking my thumb when I was 10?

How about when you took care of me when I had surgery when I was 15?

You were there attending my soccer games when I was 17 right?

And watched me cross the stage for gradution. 

You helped me move in to my dorm at 18 remember? 

But will you remeber me crying telling you goodbye at 20?

Do you remeber me giving you the biggest hug at the gate, praying you wouldn't leave?

Or how I slept in your room the night you left, hoping it was all a bad dream?

You have kept in contact but you are not the same.

What happened to the boy who would tell me everything would be okay when I was crying?

Or the boy who bragged about how he was related to the soccer player who just scored a goal?

Every night is different, the stars always move and the moon is never constant 

But the night you left will always be the same, never ending, always on a loop in my head

So goodbye brother

Goodbye to the person you were before you left.

And hello to the person you are becoming now.