the moment i knew i didnt need you
you never paid attention
you being the crushing weight on my shoulders
like a column from a building
and when i finally let go?
all hell broke loose
from the week you screamed and yelled
from 23 simple words of me saying im ready to leave
for me finally caring for myself
when you called me selfish
because i was finally watching out for my safety
for you making yourself the victim
when i was the one who was being touched with no permission
when i was the one being forced on
but you claim to hate people like that
and when your friends like me more than you?
you blamed it all on me
"you became a nightmare"
that was the only thing that stuck in your head?
not me saying i cried over you screaming
from me being uncomfortable and leaning away
from me flinching every time you made a fast movement
"i love you" and "the taste is bitter" you said
right then, i was thinking that I was the one better off dead!
and sometimes, i still think that.
from you claiming no one cares
youre the one who pushed them away
youre the one who pushed me away
you claimed you were improving
but improvement is going forward, not pushing back
and definately not being a megalomaniac