its been so long and im still not over it

we were closer to each other than i ever thought i could get to someone

it breaks my heart when i see things that remind me of you

but thats everything 

everywhere

everyday

you were my source of joy and i took pride in us

you were like an iv, tediously yet delicately placed throughout my body

feeding me 

when you left its as if someone cut the chord

my joy, my happiness my pride and life just taken at once

im still alive but dont be fooled

on the inside im ruined, my soul has been stripped

and sometimes i tell myself that it could have been different

if i didnt fuck up and blow it and lose you

but i lost more than just you

i lost myself within you

and now i have just one more request

will you please let me find myself again?