I saw a picture of you.

I saw how you have changed.

I thought about friending you.

I thought about maybe calling you.

But I don't have your number.

I looked you up on facebook

I see that there is a new girl.

She's different from the last one you left us for.

I wish I could see you and just ask you a few questions.

I wish I could hold on to the memories which ly so far away.

I think of you every now and then

and I think of how life might of changed.

If you would've been just a man 

and had been the father you promised.

you used to always say don't forget how much I love you

but it's hard to remember

when the last time you heard those words were

over 7 years ago.

You came into town and you were supposed to stay for a week.

You ended up leaving the very next morning. 

You dropped us off like we were a movie rental.

I get that you were facing your troubles with her

but where is she now?

Where am I now?

Where are you now?

No one understands the road that you took

on your way back to mississippi.

You chose her over your children.

What did I ever do?

You later tried to get in contact when I was approaching the 8th grade.

Young and oblivious a grudge flowed through my viens.

It became my fault that you and I were not okay

and that's why Jayden and Garrett recieved birthday cards that year.

Come January 12th I waited by a mailbox, a phone, and computer only to come to the conclusion that you had forgotten or purposely neglected the chance.

January 13th it's only a minute into the day.

I stair at the ceiling and realize It wasn't coming.

There was no letter, call or email.

The same thing would happen to Jayden and Garrett the next year.

I saw you on facebook and now my brain is out of control.

I'm furious, angry, and sad.

The tears roll down my cheek as they did when you left the first time.

How could I let you do this to me?