Mine
You can have the diamond locket that I locked away my heart in; I gave it to you freely.
All I wanted was your heart but if you think you need it, go ahead and keep it.
Your love burns me anyways.
You can have my dignity and pride;
my world built on top of lies.
I’ll give it to you every time;
go ahead and betray me one more time.
Sometimes I think of all those pretty things--
the true identity you stole from me.
Well, go ahead and burn it all away.
I never hid a single thing that really mattered, not from you,
so I’ll still be the same.
You can have my heart,
it’s fine if you shatter it.
It’s what I deserve.
I’m falling apart without you like I did when I realized I was in lov--
I’ve bared my soul to you but you still want more
like my best isn’t good enough,
I’ve heard it before. And I listened,
so go on and take it all just to hurt me--
it’s like the world balancing so precariously on my shoulders is just now rolling off of them,
so if you want to hurt me you’re going to have to try harder than that.
You can have these last few lines;
they’ll be ringing in my ears for eons
but I’ll still have the last laugh
because you’ll still be thinking I gave you everything I had.
But I didn’t give you me
so this is still mine.
You know why?
Because I am not a gift I give lightly
or heavily.
Because I am not that girl--
the one who runs off with her boyfriend before analyzing the consequences.
Because I want love, not you,
and you want love, not me,
and neither one of us knows how to love so we’re a dead end.
Mostly, because I’m scared.
But that’s not fair to you, so tell you what.
I’ll give you anything you want--myself included--
if you can teach me not to be afraid anymore.