mind games

Thu, 05/12/2016 - 14:19 -- BW289

I'm falling deep,
knees are shaking,
I'm feeling weak.
I don't know what to say,
When I open my mouth to speak. 
All these fucking feelings
Are attacking me. 
Weighing me down, 
I'm crawling on the ground.
I don't know what's going on now.
Do I let go or keep you around.
What do you really mean?
Gravity is pulling at everything.
You say what you want,
But how can I take you seriously
When you do one thing,
Then act differently.
My world is spinning around,I
But time isn't slowing down.
Which way do I go now? 
All hell is breaking lose,
and my mind can't handle the sounds.
I'm sick and tired of waiting around,
Playing games, because you are to scared to try now. 
And everywhere I look,
There's no answer,
One word can change everything,
This whole things a disaster.
My heart beats louder,
and the walls shatter.
The glass is breaking,
Because your all that matters. 
I'm trying so fucking hard,
I've liked you since the start,
But my world is falling apart.
Just give me a straight answer,
Because all the jokes and laughter,
Are getting old
Your just pulling me along for the show. And as these feelings grow,
I'm getting impatient,
How long does it take to know?
You either want something or you don't.

I can't hold on when you can't make up your mind. 

If you have feelings don't run away and hide.
It hurts more to keep it bottled up inside, 
Then tell me you can't do this anymore, cause you haven't even tried.


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