Mental Switch
When did my wrists start to look more like canvases
And the blade more like a brush with which to paint
Where the eraser is used to erase the mistakes of my life from my wrists
And the lighter burns away my frustration and guilt
When did I start to only feel content when my legs and core are covered in bruises
And my fists turn into weapons bent on my own destruction
Where my finger nails yearn to scratch into my flesh to finally release the tension
And the needle's sting brings me back into reality
Proving my existence with the pain that is so refreshing
When did everything suddenly start to have a double meaning
Tools to use in this sick path of vengeance
Stripping me of innocence
And calling for my life to be filled with a different kind of affliction
When did pain stop being a warning sign and start looking more like a welcome one