I told you it's just not you this  time 

 

Sometimes the truth even lies 

 

It lies between lies and an unexpected surprise

 

When your not recommending commitment 

 

Cause you know I been through 

 

You know that my love isn't balanced 

 

Especially when I'm not with you 

 

Not saying that you can't believe me 

 

Or that I would go out just cheating 

 

But I can honestly modesty has me beaten 

 

And I can picture me leaving 

 

 

I can picture me surfing 

 

From a person you call perfect 

 

To the one that just hurt you 

 

 

You see I'm not perfect and I never said I was 

 

I went from I love u to I remember when I loved 

 

And know you hate me forever make me 

 

Into the person you diss 

 

And your lips still cringe when u think of the kiss

 

That I have you when I told you that I craved you

 

 

 

 

No matter how much I ignore you my conscious still supports you

 

Your imperfections that aren't important I rub your back as I escort them 

 

No matter how many times we fight despite the yells I'm still the one that fails 

 

To ignore your calls when I need help and to not reply when I'm by myself 

 

You've been my biggest weakness before I ever told you any secrets 

 

And still to this day you hold the deepest 

 

You call my phone when I am sleepless and whenever I tell you life has me beaten

 

Your unpredictable and oddly smart 

 

Your words are much thicker then your body parts 

 

Now of days that's impossible to find 

 

Love is difficult but you taught me that the hardest obstacle was "trying"