I saw you with your new girlfriend a few nights ago.
Your hair was slicked back. You were wearing that tux I picked out for you, the navy one.
You seemed to be having a great time.
But I have a few things to get off my chest before you start anything else with her.
I hope you fall in love with someone who always text you back and never lets you go to sleep feeling unwanted.
I hope you fall in love with someone who holds your hand during the scary part in horror movies and burns Christmas cookies with you. Because you are too busy dancing in the kitchen.
I hope you fall in with someone who tickles you and makes you smile on the hard days and on the easy ones.
But beyond all that I want you fall in love with someone who will never leave you behind.
Who will never take you for granted.
Someone who will stand by you when you’re right and stand by you when you are so wrong.
Someone who was seen you at your best and your worst and still thinks you are a masterpiece.
Because I learned the hard way that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fall in it.
Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible.
Their feet upon the dashboard is no longer sexy
Just another distraction in their busy life.
It scares me that I become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.
I hope you fall in love with someone who sees galaxies in your eyes and you see the universe in theirs.
Find someone who makes you realize 3 things:
1) Home is not a place, but a feeling
2) Time is not measured by a clock but by moments
3) That heartbeats are not heard but felt and shared
I want you to be happy, even if that’s not with me
Because you’re the only person I have loved enough to put before myself.
I have spent so many nights writing, rewriting, texting, deleting, emailing, and trashing letters to you.
I’m so sorry
I wish you loved me back
I love you still
I’m scared you’ll find someone else
I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough
I love you
Everything I feel is connected to you
You are in my veins
Why wasn’t I good enough for you
I need to get over you
My mouth can’t explain how things have made my heart broken
I am still in love with you
Why can’t I get over you
I loved you the way I should’ve loved myself
2 am passed, wine is gone, and I still miss you
I was so sure about you
I’m listening to your favorite song right now on repeat
You said you hated seeing me cry
I’m crying into your old jacket right now
You don’t care
Forget you, I am good enough
I love you so damn much
You never loved me, did you?
You’ll never realize how much you meat to me
You aren’t good enough for me
You put me through hell and I called it love
I LOVE YOU
I LOVED you.
Your loss, I guess.
You are so selfish, do you know that?
Being with someone when you know you don’t love them is cruel.
It’s not cruel.
It’s holding them back from someone that could give them everything.
Someone that feels waves breaking in their ribcage when they see her walk around the corner.
Someone that has had the worst of days,
But rainbows suddenly appear at the thought of her.
Someone who hears the sound of her voices and it soothes the darkest of nightmares.
She deserves someone who believes she is worth it every single day.
I deserve somebody better than you.
Because you never felt that way about me.
So when you call me after that letter and you say you’re sorry and you miss me.
I’m going to make it clear.
You were important.
You let me go.
I hope you fall in love with someone who kisses you in the rain, hugs you in the cold, and wouldn’t have you any other way.