A Love Letter To Lust
What is lust?
It’s a mouthpiece through which the enemy uses to speak
For me, it was a preliminary point of view through which I would come to view the world differently
Whisperings of pleasure that started with a key
A locked door in me
A nautical nature of nature unseen I decided to free
And free it ran through me,
You see
It slipped softly through suggestions of circumstance
The enemy knew God had a plan for me
A symphony of blessings unseen, a dream, a call that was meant for me
A legacy
You worked your way through the holes between in my ribs
And in my darkest hour with holes in my heart, I asked you to fix me
And for a while you did
You filled me, fixed me, fixated on you, you stitched me
I was hooked
Avoiding the solution to my problems in a book
A biblical bigotry in my soul you kept from me
My spirit you stole from me
The destiny you almost wrecked in me
And I
I was not broken, I was shattered
And you took advantage of me
This is notice.
You wanted a love letter
Wrapped in beautiful poetry I rolled around my tongue when you ran rampant in me
Woven from the seven woes when God called me to have 7 x 10 blessings
I, too young to understand the repercussions, gave into a war that I gave to you trusting
That you would wage the war for me
This is notice
Of the moment I began to notice that your presence in me was affecting my legacy
A life that God called me to lead
And when I began to rebuke you, tighter you clung on to me
You, wrapped in falsely beautiful mystery
You defiled me
With gifts and promises dripping with honey
Signed, sealed, and delivered for free and all I had to do was sacrifice
Me.
You lied to me.
You lied to me
You told me that you would fight for me
Told me you had cried for me
Had me believing beyond a shadow of a doubt but having been in the darkness of it for so long, I didn’t know there was a light to see
A God who cultivated me
He who wonderfully created me to plant the seeds of a generation
A nation, the groaning throughout all of creation
How did the reality of this vile nature escape my mind
How now, God, will I escape this bind of
Lust.
You wanted a love letter but this is notice
Notice that from this point on, you no longer have my focus
That cries and pleads and bargains you present to me are hopeless
The scars you left on my thighs and the tears you left in my eyes
They are pathways
Maps to a world of pain I no longer have to see
Because God have me a key
To shut and lock a door you opened in me when I was too young to believe
You, who were meant to destroy me
God used to restore me
You wanted a love letter and I’ve written one
But only to the God who delivered me from you
Who lifted me like the royalty He called me to be
He wedded me
For better or for worser
Until death bring us closer
The rings in His hands His promise of forever
The blood poured red to turn this mess into a dress of white
I’m pure
The promises you begged of me as empty as the tomb He left for me
Lust,
I will no longer be your mouthpiece
This is notice.
(a.w.)