Love Isn't Pain
She never listened to a word I said.
She always dragged me down.
And when I had enough and told her to stop,
She continued anyway.
I knew she loved me
She was my mother after all
So I believed that love was pain.
It's all I ever knew.
I received so much "love" from her all the time
But the pain caused by her would eventually diminish.
So I took matters into my own hands and took blades to my arms until my wrist bled
and the cuts were so numbing I thought I was dead.
Dissatisfied, I looked for more love
So I fell in "love" with the wrong people
who hurt me the most
because this is love right?..this is love.
This is what I deserve.
I do not deserve anything more.
and I didn't realize until many years later
that this isn't love
because when I met you
I knew for sure,
that this wasn't even close.
Because I love you, and you love me,
you helped me realize that love isn't pain
but the thing that makes the pain go away
And it's support and understanding
it's trust and encouragement
it's having compassion
it's like wearing your heart on your sleeve and knowing it'll be okay
like home,
it engulfs you and protects you and makes you feel safe.
Love isn't pain.
It's everything that makes your heart jump with glee
and I promise to give you what you need
whenever you feel down, ill be there for you
and show you love through every action I do
and because I love you, I mean every word.
We're partners for life and in sickness and in health, i'm all yours.