Love of a Father
Is this how it is supposed to feel?
Broken and scared.
On the floor in a ball crying
Hearing the raging in the background
Words thrown out
Nothing you can do to take them back
Two way street
But it really shouldn’t be
Drifted apart
Falling at the seams
Happy mask
Broken girl behind it
It’s all a show
But everyone has a ticket
No tickets to the real world show
Where the true pain lies
Smiles all around
On the point of leaving
Don’t know whether or not to give up
Who will love me for me?
Show me how the love of a real father is supposed to feel
I don’t like feeing abandoned
I don’t want to feel broken
I don’t want to feel stupid
I don’t want to feel worthless
Can someone catch the broken pieces?
I want to feel the love of a father
I don’t want to feel like someone in the background
I want to feel like a priority
I want you to be someone who doesn’t think work is more important than family
No one knows
Do they care?
I want to be happy
Not worry about if he’ll get upset over something
Not give us the silent treatment
Not interact
I’m whole and put together on the outside
I have it all together to the outside world
Broken and alone on the inside
What does the love of a father mean anymore?