Do you know what it is like to feel empty yet full at the same time?
Know that you're blessed with life and love of others yet neglect your own
Look in the mirror, can't you see?
You're pretty but in this angle you're ugly
These acne scars are the remains of the pain
that came with the stains of insecurity
that even after a good day still remain
Trying to mask this lack of love with laughter
Hoping no one notices the emptiness in my words
Or the sadness that I feel creeping out of me
Spilling onto the pages i've written, pages so damaged
Turned the page but still unable to see the next chapter
How is it that my body
starving from all the love ive been forgetting to feed it
is still capable of loving so strongly?
Do you know what it feels like
to see your mother smile
but witness the longing for real love leak out of the cracks of her broken heart?
Or hearing her screams that try to summon happiness
behind a set of lips that were sewn shut by her own two hands to protect my ears
As she ends the phone call with the man who doesn't even ask her how her day was
Let alone tug at the strings of her soul
Sending her warmth from his being to hers
to melt the glaciers that became her feelings
so that her heart could sing freely
doesn't know what it feels like to be loved genuinely.