Ive had a fast kind of love 

and a slow kind of love

ive had a draining kind of love 

and an obsessing kind of love 

fast is full of pressure 

slow is manipulative

draining is unhealthy 

obsessing is simply not okay

 

the love i have experinced has taught me what it is i do not want 

the kind of love that pressures you to make rash decisions 

the kind of love that manipulates you into feeling like everything is your fault

the kind of love that puts you in a hospital after a night of crying 

the kind of love that turns you into someone YOU cant even love

 

love can be found anywhere there is happiness

love is not singular 

love is not irregular 

 

it took me a long time to teach myself that 

took a long time for me to love myself 

 

a careful kind of love is what i am in search of 

one that isnt rushed 

one that is enduring 

on that pushes me to be better every day 

a love that i have for myself is the love i want in return 

a love that shows my worth 

but also a love that an be shared 

where i can love you the way i love myself 

a love thats independent 

a love that grows 

 

not a love that pressures, manipulates, drains and changes you for the worst

 

the kind of love i have for him is all these things 

the kind of love that is worthy to be spoken allowed as more than comfort

but as a sign that stands outside my heart 

showing my vulnerability from the start 

a love that is clear as a spring morning

 

a kind of love that i can be proud of