I have come to the shocking realization that I am no longer happy with the life I am living. 

Everything now a days is such a bore

And im scared that one day I will see my life as completely pointless and not worth living

I'm scared of getting to that point because I have already been at that point, years ago, and I was absolutely miserable

It's odd being at this point again

I swear for so long I was so happy

and then something snapped 

a little switch in my head went off and I no longer felt like myself

I once again fet lost