I went to a musical, Heathers
It was reccomended for sixteen year olds
And up, and I'm only thirteen
It was my only chance, though, Mum knew that.
Heathers has some 'heavy themes' so there were
People from Youthline, and the woman there
I think she thought I studied at the place
Where it was put on? But I'm thirteen?
I'm thirteen years old and I look a lot
Older, and sometimes I kind of like
That, but other times I really don't?
Because I think like I'm older too?
And sometimes, I don't want to
I see people my age who look
Younger than they are, and they
Also act a lot younger than they are.
Maybe if I looked younger, I'd think younger
And maybe if I thought younger, I'd have more
Peace of mind, maybe I'd be fine, maybe I wouldn't
Think too much? And then maybe I wouldn't cry?
And maybe I wouldn't know things
That I don't want to know?
Places in my mind that
I don't want to go?
And if you look younger, you think younger
And if you look older, you think older
Is that because we copy, we copy our bodies
Or do we change our bodies to look like what we feel inside?
If you look a different way, you lead a different life
And you become a different person, and maybe
It's all because people treat you younger if you look younger
And vice versa, maybe that's the cycle
That makes everything so different
If you look a different age
And maybe it's time for the world
To turn a different page
And just treat you the way you are?
And not assume your age?
But that's a pretty hard page
To turn, because you don't just ask
Everyone about their damn age?
Everyone you meet? And people assume
Age to ask I.D, you see? It's confusing
So maybe we should just live with this effect?
I don't know.
I'm going to go
And make some people think I'm a
Year Thirteen now, instead of a
Thirteen year old.
If there's anything good about the 'effect',
It's that it's fun to fool people.