I cannot be what you want me to be anymore

or 

do what you want me to do

I cannot live up to these

expectations 

that you have set for me 

and it's crazy

thinking things will get better 

but somehow they don't 

or

don't know how to

I cannot be the pedestal 

that you want to stand on

for I am weak 

broken

empty

with a void 

and a hole in my heart

I cannot be there 

without knowing that you care

that my faith is unyielding and

has true cause 

I cannot hold onto your burdens 

for they are heavy

 and my heart light

knowing that I cannot walk the distance 

to go that extra mile 

I cannot do these things

not because I don't love you 

but 

because I have found that loving you 

is something I cannot do.