A Letter to My Tears
A letter to my tears,
Why must you always leak from my eyes?
Slowly trailing down my face
And leaving a river -
A canyon, rather -
Inside my soul
In those moments
When you occupy my thoughts completely
I feel as if I am drowning
Drowning in a feeling I cannot fully explain
A feeling that surrounds my consciousness
Heavy
As if each drop
Is a thousand pound weight on my chest
Who is this girl?
Hiding in her room
Streaks down her face
Confused and alone
She isn’t me, is she?
I don’t even know who I am when you come to call, tears
I am not the smart girl, quiet in the back of the room
That my fellow students see
I am no longer sweet and bubbly and pink with laughter
As I look to my friends
Not unless a tear counts as a bubble
The responsible young lady that her family knows,
That girl disappears for the seconds, minutes, hours that I am drowning
No one sees us together
No one sees me lying on my bed with smiles forgotten
Any positive attribute of the day lost to the wind
The struggles that would normally stay bottled up inside me, never seen, never heard
Now plain as day on my face
I hate feeling this way
Helpless and out of control
Wondering if it will be okay again
So, tears, it would be appreciated
If you could leave me alone
Sincerely yours,
Hannah