So yeah I know you'll never read this
And this is just some stupid childish crap
But I'm the spirit of maybe being normal again
I know how it feels.
I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you,
And waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart,
For everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end.
I know exactly how it feels.
I know how it feels to wake up at 2am soaked in sweat from your nightmare,
And skipping class just so you can catch your breath,
For your entire world to be spinning.
You will never know
You're not gonna understand my pain
And how some days, weeks, sometimes months I can't get out of bed
Because I'm too fucking scared
Are you happy, proud of yourself
Do you feel powerful now
Because you prove you could over power a 5 foot tall girl
Do you feel good knowing that I live in fear every day dreading school
Because you're there
And that I dislocated my knee so I could use an elevator
Cause you live in the stair
I haven't felt safe in 6 years
6 whole fucking years run by you
And was once not enough
Did you have to break me again and again
5 days a week 180 days a year
To prove you were cool
To feel better about yourself
To get out your anger
Well I hope you don't think about me anymore
I hope that you can sleep easy every night
And I hope that you can have a relationship
Cause I can't
So yeah fuck you
But I'm done you aren't worth my time
You screwed up by thinking I was weak
I'm stronger than you'll ever be
Do I like you?
Do I care about you?
Do I forgive you?
But that's so I can move on it not for you, cause to be honest you don't deserve it but for once I deserve a life again