A letter to Love

Thu, 09/25/2014 - 21:32 -- King_G

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72301
United States
35° 8' 15.7956" N, 90° 11' 46.8096" W
72301
United States
35° 8' 15.7956" N, 90° 11' 46.8096" W

Dear love of my life: I wrote this that night that you decided to let me hear those beautiful words again....I love you. And after all these years, your still here...Even though I come back, and again I dissappear. I think to myself this can't be right. How could she continue to love me? I mean after all those nights that I would pick a fight, I'd sit and watch you cry, and continue to live as you slowly die inside. Still you continue to love me.....And I could never understand how the heart could be so cruel, but I'm overwhelmed by the fact the heart will allow someone to love the way that you do. How could I go out into the darkness searching for a light standing beside a star that shines so bright? I battle with myself, contemplating that she could be it, but still I continue to run in search for a fire all the while I stand in the mist of one that burns as hot as the sun. But still you Love me....years later...I'm back again. After I feel I have enjoyed, and grown tired of a life of sin, your still here. Only difference is, Now it's not only she....There is a him? Wait....she hasn't moved on, I still remain in her heart, and in the echoes of every thought in her brain.....But what if this isn't a game? What if nothing will ever be the same?  What if the love that she felt for you no longer maintains the tenacious grip to her heart? Could she? Would she?....But even then she still Loves me. But as time moves on and the tables have turned, and I'm the one that sits in concern....wondering if she still loves me?  Even though she says she does, she still utters those beautiful words and I still feel the love. Somethings different, there's something missing.....or is it? You see nothing is missing, the only difference is something was gained, see only thing wrong with this picture is now it contains another frame....him. Is this it? Could I have finally met defeat?  Is this really the end for me? If so what would you say if she was reading this? Love of my life, my star that shines so bright, in the midst of the darkness continue to be that light.....  And even though it seems, that I have fallen short of what you need, no matter what, in my eyes you will always be my Queen. I'm sorry, that even though I put you through something that you never deserved, after all the pain, the tears, and years of hurt, I could never love you as you loved me. But I ask that you continue to be the beautiful person that you are,Even when times get hard continue to sine as you always have, continue to live, continue to love, continue to laugh. As for me? I guess that I have to move on, I know your always there for me but I can't bare to see you smile knowing that I'm not the cause......And even though I know you still love me, please try to let me go.

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