Here’s some things you need to know about me:
My name, Phoenix, says it all
I’m a ticking bomb of emotions waiting to blow
I’m not sensitive, just confused
About what to say,
What to do
Seems that everyone knows what their purpose is
As my favorite TV character put it:
“Well it's just,
Princess Luna raises the moon,
Princess Celestia raises the sun,
You protect the Crystal Empire,
And all I seem to do is smile and wave...”
When I was young,
No one ever seemed to credit me,
Help me to find and support my dreams
What is my purpose?
Then, I found it!
I wanted so badly to become an engineer,
But not understanding the math,
The numbers became my greatest fear
Now, I’m stuck with marketing
I’m stuck with the sorry job
Of people targeting.
My parents said I followed others
How ironic that it was them I chose to follow
In turn, giving up
The thing I cared for and loved
I’m lost in the hustle and bustle of the voices that
Surround me, drown me, push me down because
It’s a pain for them to listen to me.
My head is spinning,
The memories coming back to haunt me
The choices I’ve made have burnt down my life
They’ve created the night-like soot that tries hard to
Envelope me, filling my throat;
Choke me, suffocating my lungs;
Snuffing out the last spark of hope that’s inside;
It buries me in its darkness
Adding pressure to crush my soul.
I struggle to break free, until
I free and spread my wings
I rise from the ashes, standing my ground
The whole world goes silent
Except for one sound
My voice bellows in desperation
For I’m tired and fatigued from all the pain the world has caused me
“I don’t want to be my biologicals,
I don’t want to be my parents,
I don’t want to be my sister,
I want to be that innocent girl
Surrounded by the magic of ponies, love, and friendship.
I want to be heard,
I want to be seen,
I want to
“So sorry if I offend, but
Those clingy-natured or airheaded boys?
They just ain’t my thing
I’d rather have that nice European guy over there
The cool one with the green eyes and the wings
“No, I don’t want to stand in front of a large audience
Talking about heaven and how we should reach her,
So on your list of things for me,
Just go on ahead and cross off P-R-E-A-C-H-E-R
“Quit suggesting what I want and what I should do
Trying to live your life through me isn’t cool.
I want to be loved by the person I love,
I want to be an engineer,
I want to learn.
There is no more fear.
I am going to change the world.
“And I quote:
‘That is the role I am meant to have in our world!
The role I choose to have!’
“Because I am the firebird
I am the Phoenix”
And that’s all you need to know…